Hell week no.2

Yes it’s hell week again. Hoping I’d survive. Let’s see what’s coming up next week..
1) mice e-learning submission on Monday
2)BESE task 4 submission on Monday
3) mice individual interview on Monday
4) BESE class test on Tuesday
5) proficiency test 2 section A and B on Wednesday (memorizing 8 pages of menu description)

NOTE: these are only assignments and deadlines for HALF the week.

Gosh, I’m really drowning in assignments. Praying I’ll survive the hectic week. Well, it’s kinda good to be busy at times though. At least it means that there won’t be ‘before sleep thoughts’ that prevents me from sleeping.

Strangely, there’s this weird emptiness within me that is making me feel really uncomfortable lately. I guess it’s due to cooping myself at home lately. I need a getaway. School is robbing me of not only my freedom, but my sleep. I really dont know what I’m feeling right now. My whole mind is like a tornado. Unorganized and lost.
Off to complete my work instead of complaining here to myself.

what’s happening to me?

What a depressing start of the year

Started 2012 with a bang and thought things might get better as time passes. The first week of twenty twelve just proved me really wrong. Such a depressing week.

You might have guessed it, I’ve gotten back my results for tests and term test and some project grades. Yes they might seem okay, but I’m Asian. Okay is never enough. Well I’m still thankful for the few good results but it’s not enough to make me forget about the bad ones.

Furthermore I got even more depressed yesterday looking at my really really damaged hair. I wish I could do something. You might think I’m making a mountain out of a molehill. So here’s prove:

One only?


Told you. And there’s more I’m just too lazy to remove them all.

I really need to do something to my hair. Any recommendations for damaged hair?
I wish I could cut it, but there would be more baby and with my current hair I’ve already been failing grooming for every SSM session.

Oh well hope next week will be better. This week feels like a rollercoaster ride for me.

And now I’m freaking stuck in a jam. I shall get an eye shut, probably makes me feel better.

hello twenty twelve!

To begin, i wanna say..

Hello 2012, i love you. So please love me back by being less bitchy compared to 2011 okay?
2011 hasn’t really been a good year. More downs than ups, i’d say.
But well, we learn from our setbacks and that’s what make us become a stronger person today.
I do foresee 2012 to have different obstacles to overcome, but i hope it’ll make me learn something from them.

A brief summary of 2011, a really brief one because it wasn’t exactly a fruitful year.

Studied at Sentosa;

New class, new friends, new project mates and new environment.

Got shortlisted by SLG;

Just because i’ve awesome group mates. Though we didn’t get selected in the end, i love my group mates! :D

Worked for the first time in my life;

It wasn’t my only job. All the jobs i hold was really fun. Love the people there!

Went to China with awesome people;

Love it, i’d rewind time to go back! Cant believe i went to a foreign land with 18 people that i do not know before and had so much fun with them! Won’t say we’re exactly close, but i like being with them! :)

Survive half of SSM and conquered Prof Test 1;

Yes, i look horrible. But it’s memories. Slapping ridiculous amount of gel on your hair once every week. Even though i hate it, I’d look back and reminisce about these days. Oh sigh, the tiring but fun days.

Had my first formal interview;

- NO PICTURE- but i was nervous as heck okay. The feeling, i’d never forget.
I’d say i manage it pretty well since i was accepted. hahaha, i’m awesome. Nah, just kidding. I was really nervous and i had close to zero expectations of getting it. It came as a surprise, really.

Family matters which was :(
i’m just silently praying. Hope 2012 will be a better year for my parents. <3 Guess this incident made me realise i should cherish what i have right now.

Still being close to the monkeys;

Although we meet up less compared to previous years, I’m glad we still try to make the effort to meet up, hang out and just chill.
Hope this would go on! ♥

The girls;

I love how they’re in JC2 but still make the effort to meet us even though they have to study for A’s!
All the best for your results! ♥♥♥

The poly kiddos;

so glad to know you all in year 1! Even though we hardly ever meet out of school. But its okay still <3 you all! :D

2011 also marks the year i bought my iphone and i guess i really cant live w/o a smart phone anymore.
So that sums up whatever that i could remember. The rest are probably just some insignificant things or things that would happen every year? Idk, but these are just the “major” ones.

So are you ready for 2012?!
Lets set some resolutions/goals!
1) Increase GPA!
2) Learn the guitar
3) Try something for the first time (clubbing excluded)
4) Widen my social life = talk to people more, be less shy, be less awkward.
5) Decorate my room!! (idk why i keep procrastinating)
6) Sleep earlier(before 1am)
7) Read more books (okay i actually read more books in 2011 than in 2010, so i think in 2012 i wanna read even more!)
8) Watch a movie alone
9) Tone up!

That’s actually all that i could think of now. Will add more if i ever think of any again.

I wish y’all have a great year ahead! Forget all the unhappiness in 2011 and kick start 2012 with a bang!
Gonna end 2011/start 2012 with awesome people, pretty sure it’ll be good. :)

talk to y’all again in 2012! <3

Merry Christmas!

hello everybody its christmassss!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
(All i want for christmas is to be happy forever!)

Well, not exactly a christmas person. But christmas is a joyous occasion! The season of giving!
Although, i do not have any tradition of getting gifts for people cause i find gift giving a chore. I practically have no idea what to get for people, because i think too much. “what if they dont like it?” yup, my biggest problem. I’d make cards but i ain’t no artist so.. i’m just gonna do nothing. haha. okay i promise i’d do something in years to come. watch me! & christmas isn’t exactly a day for gift giving, it’s a day where one should spend with people they care. Family, friends, bf/gf! :D

So over the days that i wasn’t here. Half the time i’m just questioning myself about life etc. The rest was just my normal daily routine.

Proficiency test 1, checked!
Went for interviews, checked!
“secured” internship position, checked! (haven’t accept the offer, but i guess its secured?”
worked for RWS again, checked!
MICE project, HALF DONE.
Shop for CNY, NOT DONE.

School’s starting in a week’s time. This coming week.. weekends would be burned enjoying myself.  Weekdays would have to be meeting up with people, doing work and shopping. Hate it whenever i need to get clothes, nothing catches my eye. Ugh.
I wanna start coming up with 2012 resolutions! i know every year i say i wouldn’t want to come up with resolutions but i just feel that i need some goals so that i’d achieve something every year. Its meaningless to live by nothing. So i’ve decided to come up with resolutions. Yay me!

I shall prepare my list and tell y’all on 31st Dec!

Bring me along

If a place like this exist, would you please bring me along?
I’d be eternally grateful to you.
I just want to leave this place, to a place where nobody knows me.
I need change in my life, because everyone’s changing.

To be honest, It’s sad how everyone’s changing, and i dont quite like it.
Maybe it’s just human nature to hate changes.
Everyday i ask myself ” what am i doing with my life?”
Why am i the only one remaining status quo?
As much as i like it this way, it’s time to keep up with everyone’s pace.

If one day, i happen to be gone forever..
what would i have achieved?
Who would be there?