so sick of people

I feel like everyday i’m just rushing and rushing and rushing.
Why cant people slow down and just enjoy the moment that they’re in?
Now i have to walk fast, eat fast, pack my bag quickly?
Okay, whats the whole point of doing things fast?
they say to “save time” so that they can go home and do more work.
So when you’re in your deathbed you’re gonna look back and say i’ve accumulated 10 hours of my life to do work.
If that’s what makes you happy, so be it. But dont fucking drag me into this whole rush to do work shit. Not gonna make me happy, like how you lifeless humans are.
I want to look back and say i’ve seen the beautiful things in life, because i’ve taken 2 minutes of my life everyday to look around and just enjoy every moment that i’m in. :)
Definitely there are days that i just wanna go home quick because i’ve a whole stack of work to do, but seriously you rush even when there’s no work?! That, i simply don’t understand.

Sometimes i really wish i could say whatever that’s on my mind, you think its easy, but ever considered the consequences?
I really wanna stand up for what i really want to go for, but how is that even pos

You have stolen my heart

Fyi, all my titles have no link to my posts at all. They’re mostly lyrics!
& i have also  realized i usually blog when i’m in the midst of doing my work and i wonder why.

i just thought i would like to share with you guys place i MUST go and things i must try before i die.
1) Maldives.

tell me whats there not to like? clear blue ocean, relaxing environment.
This place would definitely be the first place i would think of when i’m in need of a place to relax and just escape from reality.
2) To stay in a boutique hotel

Basically boutique hotels are hotels that have rooms that are themed.
I know most people’s dream is to stay at a good 5 start hotel and all, yes i would love to.
But for me, its more of the environment and experience so boutique hotel is something i really want to experience!

3) Stay at Burj Al Arab

You might think its average looking. But fyi, its a 6 star hotel. One night stay in this hotel costs you around a thousand dollars.
They have pillars that are gold plated, diamonds etc. All in all i would want to say “Dubai, i’ll be there someday.”

I’ve decided not to continue because all of them are travel related. Must be my course of study. Ever since i enrolled myself in to LRM, i realised i’ve a change in perspective about travelling. I used to be the average people thinking about visiting 5 stars hotel at Paris/London/New York. But now i’ve changed, i want to visit countries that are venetian looking, somewhere i can go to relax etc.

But if you really ask me where i wanna go, i have no definite answer. Honestly, i would want to travel the world.
So i order for me to fulfil all of these dreams.. i better go back to to my work.
Sian x1233545731231

I’m over

what happens when you suddenly feel so stupid?
You realised that for the past few months, you’re the only one thinking too much into something so pointless.
Its like you’re living in your own world, but assuming and imagining others are in it too.
How dumb.
I’ve came to a decision.

To.. free my heart.

The days where your heart and mind is empty, those are the best days.
Your mind free to wander, your heart free to seek.

J for Joy?

J no longer represents Joy, J is for Jaded.
Projects are sucking me dry physically and emotionally.
I have been staying up late for 3 consecutive days, sleeping only an average of 5 hours a day. Thought i could sleep early today and rest a little during the weekends.
Well, apparently i cant. There’s project meeting again tmr.
Spoil my fucking plans. My plan was to do POM by tonight and start on Sociology tmr.
Now they tell me tmr they wanna prepare for presentation on Wednesday. When there’s ample time to do so on Monday.

I feel like i’m working like 20 hours a day, whenever i have free time that is. Breaks and what not. I wish someone could share the burden with me, but no, cause everyone’s selfish and they think about themselves first. Like whaaaat? I sacrifice my break that i could use to catch up on my sleep to do the project. & nobody bothers helping.
i wish i could call the project mine, like fully mine.

The best thing is they ALWAYS use “i dont know what to do” as an excuse and it pisses me off so bad.
In my mind i’m thinking like ” so i’m a genius that knows everything.” There must be a way to find out right!
you dont even bother reading the project questions.
I shall use “i dont know what to do” as an excuse in future too.

Back to work bitches.

i spook you

hey yo wassup you guys.
i was looking for an opportunity to blog about my spook experience, but couldnt find any.
So now i’ve been sitting in the school’s library for 4 hours, alone. & decided that this is the right time.
So, i was involved in a 5 days spooktacular experience alongside with other LRM+HTM+ other poly mates.

(dont bother looking for me, i myself cant see where i am . if you really must, i’m in a black mask somewhere at the back..)
We went through a 3 day crash course, that i would say does not benefit me at all.
(so i shall skip the long a draggy process and fast forward to the fun part!)
so on the 23rd was our first day, it was more of nervous than excited for me.
i’d be honest with you, i did super badly on the first day.
Kinda demoralises me actually, but for the remaining four days..
please spell A-W-E-S-O-M-E for me! (i think i just spelt it for you)
People fell, people screamed, people cried, people faint, people apologized to you etc.
(some ang moh stepped on my toes cause he got a shock. hahahahaha, but i had to put up with the pain of course, its not like i can show my human self)
i felt damn satisfied i tell you.
BUT if there are  people who raises your morale, there will be people who demoralises you as well.
people made fun of me, laughed, screamed into my ears etc.
At that very time, i wanted to return to human form and you know slap them.
oh well, its part of being a ghost.

i collaborated with the indian man who was my “partner” for the event.
My job was to scare as many as possible, then distract them.
it was damn successful i tell you, almost everyone screamed at my area.
muhahahaha.

Biggest satisfaction? Guys that got scared. i had a couple of them, who ran back through the curtains.
Biggest achievement? Getting to work with the awesome people and make awesome friends.
Not just the talents, but the queue management people as well. :)

But it was darn scary, really.
I was situated at the ” dead or alive wax museum”, got real wax statues one okay!
They’re like everywhere around you and there were weird sounds coming out from idk where.
which was really creepy especially when you’re alone.
There was a time where everyone around me went for their break know, but good thing was i didnt know there was no one around until the volunteers mentioned.

i hereby conclude that it’s damn awesome and who knows? i might join again next year.